I am around. Having trouble putting my thoughts together, and life is in limbo right now.

I just got internet access again. I’ll be around more soon.

No, I haven’t truly abandoned you! My dog totally ate my macbook cord, and my home office is about 25 degrees hotter than the rest of my house. J’s laptop fan also died, so there goes our entertainment (we totally ditched our $80/m Satellite for internet TV watching!) for about a week unless we feel like roasting.

Yes, October is days away and it is still hitting nearly 100 here in So Cal, and there are days when the A/C just doesn’t cut it unless we want to go completely broke by pushing it down to 70*.

Sunday (yesterday) was a roaster, and I couldn’t help but think back to New York when it was a crapshoot as to whether or not the last week in September would be Indian Summer, or if you’d need to pull out the winter coats, but in all honesty it was fun. We went over to the Claremont Farmer’s Market for the first time and picked up some local organic veggies, raw local honey and some raw juice, which surprisingly, J actually liked.

In other news, I will be 30 in two weeks. When did this happen? Hopefully, since I will be in Vegas that day I will be too horribly drunk to realize that I am in my 30’s instead of my 20’s. It’s not so much that I actually mind being 30, or that I fear aging, but it’s more that I feel that I wasted my 20’s screwing off and not really enjoying life, and 30 just feels “all grown up” and that I’ve lost my chance to be young. It doesn’t really help much that I’m still in college and won’t be done for a few more years, and that we’re not even close to having kids and I feel like the next five years will end up cramming all that shit in before it’s too late.

Vegas? Yes. Vegas. A group of friends and I, are taking our elderly asses to Vegas to live our unfulfilled dream from 20 years ago to see NKOTB in concert. Totally lame, totally fun, and I can’t wait.

Yesterday, I was driving along and saw about 4 separate cars with YES ON PROP 8 stickers, and it just really made me angry. “Save Families” they say. Really? I wasn’t aware that allowing gay people to get married would invalidate my marriage! I should alert my husband!

Look, I don’t expect people to change their minds overnight and agree with gay marriage. (though I have to admit, I think you’re a jerk) But I do expect people to mind their own fucking business and realize that TWO WOMEN MARRYING EACH OTHER HAVE NOTHING. NOTHING WHATSOEVER TO DO WITH YOU. It does not make your marriage into a farce. The only person who can do that is you, and if you TRULY feel as if your heterosexual marriage is a farce because Shirley and Emily up the block got married, then something is wrong with your value system.

I don’t agree with abortion. I don’t think that I could ever get one, but I will never say never because I don’t know what the future brings. But I sure as hell don’t think it’s my right to force the fact that I don’t believe in abortion on anyone but myself, which is why I am Pro-Choice. Not Pro-Abortion, PRO CHOICE. I am free to make the choice to not get one, and she is free to choose to get one.

This whole election is giving me a migraine. Someone called me a communist on another blog. If believing that everyone has the right to choose what is right for their own lives, and that I want my tax money to go to education and to help people who are not as well off as I am because I believe it is best for this nation as a whole makes me a communist, so be it.

I can live with myself at night knowing that in my perfect world women aren’t forced to give birth to a rapist’s baby,  that two women who have been in a relationship for over a decade and raised beautiful, educated , well-adjusted children can be equal to me and my husband in the eyes of MY government and that somewhere, someone who is working their ass off and still unable to feed themselves is getting the help they need because of money I don’t even need being used for assistance programs.

I have never made an apple pie before in my life - not even the kind where you buy the pie crust, the filling and throw it in the oven. My pie-making experience thus far has consisted of no-bake cheesecake, which takes more effort to shop for than it does to actually make.

Moreover, I have never had the desire to make a pie, until Justin asked me to bake one for our two-person Labor Day “picnic”, and since it was a request and it involved dessert, I had to try.

I actually spent three days scouring the internet looking for the perfect recipe before I gave up, took my basic knowledge of ingredients and just decided to make my own filling. The crust was something I found on a blog, and all the commenters commented on how wonderfully easy this crust was to make and how perfect their pies all turned out.

Well, I can say that the crust turned out “ok” and since my filling turned out to be probably the best apple pie filling EVER, I can assure you all that the thing tastes delightfully awesome - but you might want to try out a different crust recipe (or I just need more practice!)

The Pie..

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